...for not giving up.
Not too long ago, I wanted to. I felt completely defeated, used and discarded by those I had trusted the most. They never looked back, never granted me any closure. And the truth is, they wouldn’t want to be treated the way they treated me. Yet, they did it without a second thought. I had to find my own closure in order to survive; and God was the one who gave me that.
“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” -Psalm 34:18
I once found myself in the deepest, darkest place imaginable, a depression so consuming that I thought I’d never come out of it. Abuse can do that to a person. But God reminded me that even in my brokenness, He was near. I had to learn that my pain, my response to it, was not a weakness but a deeply human reaction to suffering.
I spent so much time being hard on myself, trying to meet impossible standards others had placed on me. But those expectations weren’t realistic.
“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” -Jeremiah 29:11
Here’s a video except from one of my YouTube videos, Call Upon the Name of The Lord, where I describe a fighter’s spirit, with the help of God, of course:
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I had to trust that His plan for me was greater than the pain I had endured. What was realistic–what was truly necessary–was taking time to learn who I really am in God. He saved me in every way a person can be saved. I almost allowed life’s trials to destroy me, but because of His love and truth, I was able to heal. And in turn, I now have the strength to help others.
“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” -Isaiah 41:1
Even in my weakest moments, when I felt abandoned, He was still holding me together.
“We are hard-pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed.” -Corinthians 4:8-9
In Him, I found purpose. Because of Him, I no longer wanted to give up. I wanted to keep going, to keep trusting in the good He has promised. Already that has happened for me in many forms. The most valuable element was true peace.
“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose.” -Romans 8:28
No matter what I’ve been through, He has never left me. And because of that, I press on, knowing that my story isn’t over yet.
Until next time, thank you for visit RozieLand.
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Rosalyn Rose