…[God]…[be here]…
He is the only reason I go on. I’m grateful for all that He has given me and the people He has blessed me to know and encounter in life. I’m so grateful for His patience when I don’t understand. My faith has been challenged more than ever lately. I’ve been finding it hard to understand anything that God is doing in my life, but I am still here. Sometimes, I feel like I don’t want to exist, but because God says I should, I’m holding on. I’m holding on for His promises, for that day I get to see Him again in person; for the day that He can give me my forever hug and never let go; when I never have to wake up to this fallen world again.
There is beauty in the world, but it isn’t worth staying here for–not to me. I think it better to leave it to the people who fight so hard to hurt others for it, while the rest of us go home to be with our Father, where such things are unfathomable. For now, I tolerate life here on earth. I do the best I can to spread my kindness, my love, and as much positivity as I can (I’m sorry that I’m not doing such a good job with that last one lately. Things have been hard for me; very, very difficult). But just as God wakes me up each day, He will also wake up my spirit too so that I can continue to encourage, just as I’ve been doing all this time. Please be patient with me.
I’m posting each day, even when I don’t feel positive, because I promised that I would all year long. So here it is, my human moment. Here I am, a believer of God, even when things are at their lowest and I feel hopeless. But I’m still here.
Why I’m Still Here:
“‘For I know the plans I have for you’, declares the Lord, ‘plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.'” -Jeremiah 29:11
When the weight of the world feels unbearable, I cling to the truth that God has a plan for me. Even when I don’t understand it, even when it seems like I’m drowning in confusion or pain, I know He’s not done with me yet. His promises never fail. He is a faithful God, and I trust that He is still working in my life.
“But the Lord is faithful, and He will strengthen you and protect you from the evil one.” -2 Thessalonians 3:3
I may feel weak at times, overwhelmed by my circumstances, but I know that God is with me, strengthening me in ways I can’t always see or understand. Even in my darkest moments, He is faithful to carry me through, providing the strength I need, one step at a time.
“He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.” -Isiah 40:29
When I feel weary, like I have nothing left to give, I know God is the source of my strength. He is my refuge, my safe place, and in Him, I can find the strength to keep going.
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” -Matthew 11:28
It’s in these moments, when everything feels too much to bear, that I am reminded that God offers me rest. He doesn’t expect me to carry these burdens alone. He invites me to rest in Him, to find peace in His presence, even when my heart feels shattered.
“For we live by faith, not by sight.” -2 Corinthians 5:7
Though I may not understand why certain things happen, or why my faith feels shaken, I trust in the unseen. I trust that God is working behind the scenes, that even in my confusion, He is still sovereign over all.
“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” -Psalm 34:18
In the midst of pain and brokenness, I find comfort in knowing that God is near to me. He sees my tears, hears my cries, and holds me close when I feel crushed. His love is unwavering, and it is this love that sustains me.
A Prayer for Strength
Lord, I come before You, weary and tired, but I know that in You, I can find rest. Thank You for Your patience with me, even when my faith falters. I don’t always understand the path You’ve laid before me, but I trust that You are working everything for my good. Strengthen my heart, Lord, and renew my spirit. Help me to cling to Your promises and to trust in Your plan, even when it’s hard. Remind me that You are always with me, and that Your love will never fail. I hold on to You, Lord, because You are my hope, my strength and my salvation. Amen.
Even on the hardest days, I’m still here, by His grace and mercy. And I will keep holding on, because I know God has a purpose for me. If you are struggling today, remember you are not alone. God is with you, and He will see you through. Let us hold on to Him and His promises, for He is faithful.
I pray many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many blessings over you,
xoxoxoxo
Rosalyn Rose