...a friend's death.
It changed my mind about life. It made me really reflect on how often we take life for granted. I learned that even in the worst times, we must fight for our lives; stand up and be good to ourselves. That doesn’t mean being selfish. It means quite the opposite. By caring for others, we also care for ourselves. But it’s equally important to have self-respect, to refuse to think poorly of ourselves, and to allow God to shape us into who He designed us to be.
“For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them.” -Ephesians 2:10
I often ask God to search my heart, even though I struggle with criticism. It’s for my own good so that I can grow into a better person. I hope to make a positive impact in this world, to reflect the love and grace God has given me. In my younger days, I knew God and walked with Him, but I was also caught up in the world, chasing acceptance and trying to belong. But the truth is, I never needed to fit in. I only needed to be myself, the person God created me to be.
“Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.” -Romans 12:2
It took heartache and pain to reach this realization, but through it all, God was there. Even when I stopped recognizing Him, even when I blamed Him, even when I felt too broken to function. Still, He never left me. His mercy sustained me, His grace carried me, and His love redeemed me. I wouldn’t be here today without it.
“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” -Psalm 34:18
That’s why I have such a deep compassion for those who struggle. I know what it’s like. Losing my friend Lucy was a painful reminder of how fleeting life is. She was a rare, pure soul; someone who radiated true, selfless kindness. I’ve already written about her in a previous post, but even in death, she continues to leave a lasting impact on me. Her absence grieves me in ways I wasn’t prepared for, but it also inspires me.
Each morning when I wake up now, I think of her. I don’t think she knew the impact she made on me. I don’t think I knew. I think of becoming the best person I can be, despite what has happened, is happening, or will happen. I want to shine God’s light, to show true kindness and love, because that’s what this life is truly about.
“Let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven.” -Matthew 5:16
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Rosalyn Rose